I am officially 29 and a half

The older I get the more I notice that some people have already achieved professional success who are younger than me. It used to be just sports players because most of them hit their primes when they're in their twenties. I am almost out of my twenties.

Last night Mr. Doodlebug and I watched The Office, as we always do on Thursday nights. I have known that B.J. Novak, who plays Ryan on the show, is young, but for my own sanity I assumed he was in his early 30s and just had a young face. Not the case. He's 27! B.J. not only plays Ryan, but more impressively, he produces and writes for the show. He wrote the episodes, "Sexual Harassment" and "Diversity Day," and last night's episode on safety, among others. He also produced "Conflict Resolution," "Branch Closing" and "The Convict."

As I get older I realize that there are people who are doing exactly what they want to be doing with their lives, they're brilliant -- in the case of B.J. -- or amazing -- in the case of Ryan Howard. I have let life do its thing on me, rather than the other way around. Not that I'm complaining. I love staying home with baby Doodle, and I know when he's older, even now, I have his presence to show for my work. But it's not my calling. It's not what I want to do with my life. It's not what I am brilliant at. I feel so old.