the lump

Well, I wasn't that worried about baby Doodle's lump until last night when something came over me. I don't know what, but I started to approach thoughts of the worst. I don't think it's possible for me to actually think the worst because that would be too awful to entertain and I might have a breakdown. So this morning I changed our appointment at CHOP to tomorrow morning at 8:30. Now we won't have to wait through the weekend.

I have noticed that baby Doodle does not eat smoothly from my left breast when he's lying on his right side -- where the lump is. He'll start eating normally but then he'll delatch and either scream for a split second and then go back to sucking, then repeat until I take him off and switch sides, or he'll delatch and talk, then go back to eating. On the right breast he latches on and stays there until he's fallen asleep or has had enough. I am going to continue monitoring, but I think his lump might be distracting him from a eating a relaxing meal.